Anywhere but here.

Like the rainbow exudes... stays for a second and then leaves without any hint about when it will show up next- I want to flee. Away into the darkness, into the tint and shade of that nightmare where I feel safe and protected. I want to feel that innocence that only the kid inside me can bring. I want to live past the horrors that today brought and walk into the dread of the indeterminate tomorrow.

I am no longer afraid, because you have given me the strength to be anywhere but here. I choke on my own air and suffocate in the same surrounding that once aroused the mortal in me. I can dare to be happy and hold myself back from the malicious smile I wanted to smile all along. I can dream to desire the forbidden fruit and voice the verboten verses that swindle in my head. I am not afraid. I can be.

You've shown me that I can be, anywhere but here. But you have clouded my destination by your antipathy and shown me no signs of backing off or rue. I shudder, but I follow my heart. I block my fear, look it in the eye, tell it I'm strong I will make it through the rain. I don't need your sympathy. I miss my friends. Everyone who pretended to care, but has left me helpless and in the time of need. Because you said so. I wish you were here to see me make it. Someplace you thought only you can take me. On the brink of bliss and yet I shed a lonesome tear, remembering how good it would have been if you were here. However, I'd be anywhere but here...In the comfort of your arms, in the cradle of your love.