Thursday, December 25, 2008

Lovestain.

Once upon a time, there used to be a girl. Oblivious to the world, in her own happy world with her friends, with the ephemeral loving relationships, in the happiness that those few people brought to her.

She was merry. In her head, nothing but self love evolved. Translated into many different languages, her world was perfect in her head. Defiant teenager, irritating to most adults, misunderstood to most her age yet the most popular. Infamous, perhaps but well known nevertheless. She was happy and that's all that mattered to her.

One day, like any other day, she was venturing out on her own, making a trip to the local basketball court, hoping to have some unadulterated fun. Alone, most likely but fun, anyhow. The evening passed in it's merry overture and she was ready to head home to take on that another sphere of her life. But the fatigue made her sit down with a "friend" who had company of his own. He introduced her to his friend. They greeted one another. She smiled, he responded and then they talked.

She talked to him, like she's talk to any other stranger. And then they went their separate ways. Next day, they talked again, this time a little longer and again headed in their respective directions. The following day, they spoke on the instant messaging system, for long. Slowly, they spoke everyday, laughed together and started to become friends. They started to discuss their lives. Talk about themselves.

Somehow, somewhere, they didn't know what, they liked spending all those hours on the phone. Soon, the hours on the phone translated into rendezvous and they enjoyed it. One of those days, it was raining, they stood under a tree and talked some more. It started to pour much heavily and they ran through the rain, laughing and jumping in puddles of water on the way. They had fun.

Soon after, a phone call changed everything. Those four hours, he spoke, she listened. He said things, she listened. Till he said he loved her and she said, she did too. Everything changed. They were in love. How? When? They didn't know. They didn't care. They were in love and that is all that mattered. Happiness expanded a thousand times over and she hadn't seen paradise so close before.

All was merry, again. Till one day she said to him what she had been hiding for long. She expected everything to turn upside down but on the flip side of things, it bonded them together even more. Her confession, created a crack for a little while but all the love that there was, bound them back together. Things were working out again. She smiled with him again. It was working out perfectly. They'd planned out everything. How they'd spend every day for the rest of their lives, loving one another, taking care of each other till death did them apart.

Horror struck one day when another accident fell into her lap and she sunk in too deep to get out without harming them. She messed up again. This time, however, hell hath no fury. Each time after, he'd see her, he was blinded with fury, resentment and vengeance. All was lost. She had it this close. She didn't realize it was feather light, she blew it off far beyond her reach.

She left a love stain on his heart, on her heart and in the sanctity of all that existed between them. She dug a gorge of mistrust and infidelity. She dug her own cave and she swam in her pool of tears. The mirror was her source of sympathy. Even the mirror refused to sympathize after a while. She had no where to run. She didn't deserve to. She'd ruined what they stood for and she can't compensate for it in anyway. He couldn't let go because he's worked too hard to build it. No man likes to see his creation fail so miserably. He couldn't either and he held on. For all that was worth, they still loved each other. It's credibility, shattered ofcourse but it was love like no other. It was love beyond that which the mind could comprehend. It wasn't love, it wasn't big love, it was Great Love. It was an epic.

And all that it is left to be is a meager Love Stain.

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